I don’t talk about you much, but I think about you a lot. I can’t really remember what you look like but I know I liked your eyes. They were really big and bright, except when you were high. They changed when you would use, so I choose to remember them when you weren’t high.

I don’t talk about you much, but I think about you a lot. I wonder if you know cried when you got lost? I know you must have gotten lost because you wouldn’t come home for days. My friend’smom came home…so I know for sure you must have been lost! 

It’s hard to say I love you when you come to visit now. The feelings are there but they feel really jumbled inside. I think it’s love but I’m not quite sure. I’m scared to take a chance…but then maybe I should. Maybe next time you come I’ll be brave enough to say it… 


February is known as the “month of love”. It is said, “love is one of the most profound emotions known to man.” Love is one of those words that can capture a heart and tear it apart at the same time. The word love is associated with compassion, trust, sacrifice and so much more. When it is reciprocated it can be wonderful.

Unfortunately, when drugs and alcohol become a person’s “love” it takes a toll on them as well as their loved ones. For children especially, often leaving them with feelings of abandonment, self-doubt and worthlessness. According to Psychology Today magazine, “the ability to have a healthy, loving relationship is not innate. A great deal of evidence suggests that the ability to form a stable relationship begins in infancy, in a child’s earliest experiences with a caregiver who reliably meets the infant’s needs for food, care, protection, stimulation and social contact.”

This month when millions of dollars are spent on sweets and flowers and other monetary gifts, don’t forget that some of the simplest of ways to express love are kindness, respect, a hug, spending time, a smile. Love is different for you and I so let’s be more tolerable when we come in contact with one another and remember that for some love may be hard to give.

This article was written by Patricia Hammonds, Treatment Consultant with American Addiction Centers